toby

Hmm. I should really start updating this thing on a regular basis, instead of only updating when I have a new boy, or when my life is fucked up.

So guess what?

I have a new boy.

Toby.

He's everything. And more.

Tall, dark, and handsome. Super funny/goofy. Could get along with anyone. Smart. And so much more responsible than I could ever be.

Everything he does is so cute. I just want to squeeze the life out of him.

I would love to make every morning a Sunday morning. So we could lay in the warm covers together until noon. And then we'd get up for breakfast, and then go back to the warm bed. And make love between naps. Waking each other up by making puppy sniffs in each other's ears.

He has one flaw though. The flaw that it seems every boy I get involved with has.

A fucking girlfriend.

And every time, they say they'll break up, and it never happens. And I'm the one getting fucked-over in the end.

And every time, I promise that I won't get involved with another one of these guys.

So I set a date. In my head. That I have to break up with him if he doesn't leave her by the first of December. They've been going out for one year... so I'm setting the date with enough time for him to do it. But I'm not going to tell him about my little plan. I just can't deal with this shit again.

And so 12.01.02 it is. And if they are still together, I'm breaking up with him. Toby. The perfect boy.

But I guess they all seem perfect at first.

 2002-11-20 - 1:42 a.m.

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